When you don't know what you're living for

Get up, ride a packed train, work, come home, sleep. In the middle of that routine, a question sometimes comes up: what am I actually living for? You're supposed to be very busy, and yet inside there's a big empty space that nothing seems to fill.

You got the job you were aiming for, you got the things you wanted. And yet you don't feel as fulfilled as you imagined you would. You look for a new goal, but the same emptiness comes back very quickly. Whatever you do, something solid seems to be missing under your feet.

Around you, other people seem to be walking their path with confidence. A friend who got married, an old classmate chasing a dream. You may feel like the only one who doesn't know where you're going, while time keeps slipping away.

When you look back on the year, on your birthday, or when you hear that someone has died, the shortness of life hits you hard. Then the question grows even heavier. Some nights, you lie awake with it, without finding any answer at all.

You are not the only one who has lost a sense of meaning. For as long as people have existed, many have lived with this same question. The simple fact that you're asking it shows that you take your life seriously. That is not a bad thing at all.